WIT Voices

Anyone who knows my life understands how incredibly busy I make it. I could very easily not have a show or a reading or an event every single month, but I create a life in which that is the norm. Luckily, my husband is in the “business” so he understands and is frequently as busy as I am.

My mother said once that she used to run from room to room, afraid to miss anything. I am afraid to miss an email, to not get a phone call, to not jump on any opportunity because it could be the last. I usually feel restless, unproductive, if I am at home and not working on a show, not finding more contacts, not finding more theaters where I can send my resume, not researching my next project, etc. It is a huge struggle to put the cover of the laptop down and not constantly check my email.

Last night, for instance, I had a meeting and It got out a little early. Usually I would go home, get on the internet, have a beer or two (or three) while I work on the show and cram my brain with information. Then I would end up falling asleep in my office chair until Dan tells me to go to bed.

Last night was different. I went home. I checked my email but didn’t respond to anything. I almost put in Gosford Parkbut didn’t really want to watch anything. I did some dishes. I brushed my teeth and went into bed. I picked up a book I’ve been trying to read for a month. I got further than 2 pages into it, because I wasn’t falling asleep as I was reading. Dan called and was on his way home. He came into room and we talked, just talked, without any distraction, without a movie playing, without an email. Instead of talking about what we had just read on the internet, we talked about our day.

This morning, instead of my alarm going off at 6:15am and snoozing until I absolutely HAD to get out of bed (8:20am), I actually woke up rested and feeling like getting out of bed. Who knew? Going to bed BEFORE you’re falling asleep is a good thing.

So I have some work to do. Work on not working every mintue of every day. That’s the only way to keep my mind rested so that I can face a day. So there’ s room for more ideas to enter my mind. That’s my summer resolution.